Ghost In My Dreams

I don't know You,
You are quiet and I'm quiet too...

There's only a thousand years to try, i fear we will never speak, and that's the only way for you to know me. I sometimes think you are not real and it was just a story for them to fool me. I always wonder what life would have been, if you weren't to always be asleep.

I heard you were terrible at socializing like me. That i have the same personality as you! loved music, funny, outgoing, and just caring for others. Let me tell you that every time i walk by your neighborhood everyone tells me that i look just like somebody they once knew, it is sad to say i don't even own a picture of you.

I also know that you were really into your clothing and loved dancing, why did i have to be like this, not meet you and all. Maybe it would've been better to have met you i have nothing alike with my father, but don't worry besides all the fights and differences, he takes great care of me. He's always making sure i have everything i need, He's always there for m mom and takes the best care of her.

I don't know if she misses you, she does not talk about you with me. I am not really happy about your side of the family all i talk to is some of my closest cousins, besides them they don't look for me or try to pick up the phone to see how i am doing.

They say you had the brightest smile and never let others know when you were down. That it was impossible to keep a straight face around you. That you were just full of joy and happiness.

I wish i had some sort of power to get to you and to just sit across from you and ask you a lot of questions: Are you happy with the choices I've made in life?
why, did you leave us, why didn't you wait so that i can have met you? Just so many questions but its impossible. Believe it or not i love you and just love the fact that you are my father even if i didn't get to meet you.

Sorry, i have not gone to see you, i did ask for it once but got ignored in some sort of way. I will make it some day and it would be the longest day of my life because i am going to sit there and tell you all about me, since the day i can remember. Once thing i went through in a certain period of my life where i believed it is my fault you were gone, since you were on your way to see me when it all happened, and just other certain highlights of my life that i want to know if you are okay with.

My birthday just passed by and for some strange reason i feel as if it was the most important birthday of my life because i feel as if in this past year i have learned a lot, about people around me and just life overall. I through myself a huge party that i really enjoyed a little bit too much! hahaha. But i deserved it, and really hope you think so too. Hope you saw everything and laughed at the consequences hahaha.

Love You with all my heart and hope everything is Great.